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Sunday 25 December 2011

NEW VERSION OF ROMEO AND JULIET (PART JULIET ONLY)

                Today is the day where I will be united to a guy that I had never met. I felt sorry to myself; the old version of Juliet might die for her love one, at least pretend dead, why didn’t I do the same? I don’t know how to tell. Right now, at this particular hour, I am sitting in front of the mirror, with the wedding groomer grooming me for my so called excited wedding. I could say that I was sitting there silently, being very obedient child for my parents.
“I am so glad I have such a good girl as my child,” I guess this is what my father would utter to everyone who came to so called my wedding. Father, if I could say a word to you, I would say, “why must me? Why am I always being the obedient one? Why can’t I say no? Why?”
 I know that if I uttered that, you will say the same you did when I did say I may had have someone on my mind as a husband, “You should have a life that your mother liked and you know that you are so similar with her, and I don’t want you to do the same mistake that she does. She married me who was not the count and she doesn’t have the life that she used to be. Juliet, you are the silver spoon of the family, you don’t know how to live in a life that was not your current lifestyle, especially to someone not to your class. You should not suffer like your mother when she was your age and was married to me; her father wasn’t pleased with me, but she thinks I am the best, at the end, she never happy with what she had when she with me. Do me a favour Juliet, don’t do the same mistake that she had done, you are my obedient child, my girl, you never disappointed us, your parents, it’s not my life, and I want you to have a good life later.”
Father, should I be obedient? I mean, for I being a wife to someone I don’t know? Father, for real, please, put yourself in my shoe. Shouldn’t I be happy? Shouldn’t I love someone? Shouldn’t I marry the one I love? I don’t know what to think.
“The bride mustn’t have a sour face. I need to see the best of you so that I could give the best makeup and hair do for your best day. It’s not that you are not willing to be wed right? The wedding vows aren’t for two people who don’t agree with each other you know.” The wedding groomer said that to me as I was thinking about what my father did say and will if I didn’t be the obedient child like I always do.
“Yes, indeed. A wedding vow is for two hearts to be united and it was with willing from both sides.” In my heart, I added, “either from our own heart of willing, or by forced” and I smiled bitterly I guessed, it was not my willing to smile brightly as a bride. I don’t know how the groom was, and I felt like I was being sold to someone. Now I know how the chicken felt when it was slaughtered and sold. 
Somewhere out there, I could hear clearly my father’s voice. He was so happy that I was getting married to someone he wanted me to. Father, can I run away? Can I be cruel to you? No, I can’t. I can’t make you heartbroken. Mother, you seemed happy too. You seemed very glad I did get marry to a count, he is a count, someone from the royalty, someone who very rich and you was glad I would have a luxury life that you didn’t had. Is this marriage for me? Was it? Why I can’t see that it was for me? Why? I could only see my parents are so happy, they were delighted by the name I would take later. In my head, I was thinking, why didn’t I run away the day before? If only my Romeo came to the window like always and asked for me like always. Suddenly, I remembered Romeo. I shouldn’t let anyone know his existence. Anyway, he can never be with me. Oh my Romeo, why did you do that? If not, I might not have this life I am living. I would never be having this only choice. You broke my heart first, if you didn’t, I would not be doing this. To be honest, with what you have done, and by that only, I would still rather marry the count, and I agreed just because I lose my faith on you. You make me made this only choice. I married him not because I wanted a count like my father asked me but because you left me just like that.
“I love you so much, but you have such a different kind of living. I might not have all you have; I cannot give you what you had. It’s better for you to get someone that could give all your needs.” I remembered what you said Romeo, you think I cared what I had right now but you didn’t know if I really wanted what I had. If I did wanted what I had at the first place, I would never bring you near to my heart. You will never know anyway. Now you are too busy.
Sorry dear Romeo, I didn’t tell you that I will get marry to the count. I won’t let anyone know; I shall go and never come back to the town we met anymore. After I said my vow later, there will be no connection between you and me anymore. We won’t even have a friendship kind of relationship, just because I will never see nor for you will I seek.
Until now, I wondered why you did that to me dear Romeo. The day you broke my heart, is the day when you broke our promises. That day makes me think of I should be an obedient child once again. It isn’t that I had not been an obedient child when I was with you, but I am the Capulet. Even though once the girl married, she would be carry her husband’s family name, and I won’t ever carry the Capulet name anymore, but my blood will always carry the Capulet blood. That is thing that I can never put aside.
“A Capulet must never get in touch with the Montague. Montague made us, the Capulet suffered before. For ages, we had never allowed the Montague to even know our existence. Die Montague! DIE!!”  These are the words I did hear before from my father. I could see my mother was smiling at me, trying to say that I should also remember this forever.
The nurse, a lady who takes care of me ever since I was young till now, was excited to hear that I agreed to be the wife of the count. What was his name again, Nurse? Oh, I remembered. His name is Paris. I was not sure, I never know him, I had never see him, and I had never been woo by him. What will he be? Is he true to marry me because he thinks I am the most perfect girl he had ever met? That was what I heard from my father, but I did hear different story from the girls.
“Paris knew that Juliet will gain a huge property when her parents died later. Did he like Juliet for her chinks?” “Poor Juliet if it was just because of that” “I heard Paris had a huge property himself, then why he want Juliet chinks?” “People don’t know enough right?”
What should I do? Should I be Paris’s wife or should I be alone? Why didn’t I say should I go for my Romeo? I don’t know if I should. That’s my 1st reason. Romeo, for thee I had enough. I remembered the day the Nurse told me not to be close to the Montague. The history that I need to remember is the day how the Capulet become the enemy of Montague. I, the only daughter for my father and mother, caring the name of Capulet, but I never want to make typical type of people in typical type of ways. Me, myself isn’t a typical Capulet. I never want to discriminate the Montague. I don’t want to judge without knowing the particular person itself.
I did hear that Montague is forbidden from us in Verona because they are heart breakers. Nurse, oh dear Nurse, you did warned me that love from Montague was not usually true. Nurse, you did warned me that Montague would do anything to take the hearts of the lady, but in the end, they would marry others. Oh, yes you did. Why, oh why I had never tried to be obedient on that time? Why did I rebel? Why oh why dear Juliet? I did try to cry when I remembered what had Romeo did, but I just can’t cry. My tears are very dry to come out just for what he had done.
I looked in the mirror and see different me at this time. The wedding groomer had made an excellent hairdo and makeup for me. Yes, the best for the bride. I sighed hard when I remembered I would be marrying to Paris. I looked at the bouquet of flowers that I would bring in the chapel later.  Whitish brown bouquet synchronised to my wedding dress. A simple dress, how I would like since I was young. What a lucky person am I? Any girl would like to be me, the Juliet, but me? I don’t like being this type of girl. People can only see how lucky am I, but they didn’t know they had a better life. Ok, I know, don’t compare anything to anyone. We need to live our own life independently. Just be grateful would us? Another 2-3 hours, my father will come beside me and I’ll hold his hand before he exchanged his with Paris. Now I feel like crying. Am I regretting my decision? Am I willing to be a wife? Too many things are inside my head.
I remembered the day Romeo came to the ball on the night I first know him. He wore a black tuxedo, but he also wore a mask where I didn’t know how he looks like on that time. On that particular day, I believed in love at the first sight. He who made me believes that we could unite our family. I thought it was true. Dear Romeo, how you had been such a coward. If only you are brave, be a man, tell me the truth, don’t just go away this way, you are running away from our future. I suddenly wondered, did you actually think of our future? Romeo de Montague, you are the reason for my decision.
Romeo, did you remember the day you came outside my window, and we talked for a while? Remember that day I said I would ask the Nurse to give you a message? I knew the nurse might not give it to you, so I asked someone who I really trust, Lily, to give you the message. In the end, I didn’t know that Lily would do such thing to me. The real thing I hate is when you, my love at first sight, make me lose trust to you, and you made me hating love more. Love does not exist. Does it exist Nurse? I can’t think, what is the true thing? Lord, please give me the true answer.
Everybody is against me. Everyone won’t let me love you, not even the Nurse nor my best friend Lily. I am so sorry dear Romeo if you think I had betrayed you this way, but you did the same. You broke my heart by having another girl in your life, so I had decided to marry the count as that is what I suppose to do. My fate is to be marrying to someone who I will never love and be loved. Love is never an option for me. I do love you, yes I do. In this case, I can’t deny my fate, isn’t it? Romeo, just go to the other person that you are with, I will sacrifices myself to the destiny. What will happen to me are not your things anymore. Live your life dear Romeo.
 “Smile brightly dear bride, your father is coming to get you and bring you to the chapel.” Oh my, the time has come. I would love to just stay silently here or die because of lack oxygen. The steps of my father coming to get me, sounds creepy right now.
It is hard to put a smile if you don’t like it. How can I do anything right now? I chose this path right? Can I go off just like that? What can I do? It is hard to breathe right now. It seems like my lungs had shrink. The corset seems too tight all of sudden. I stand up when I see my father is approaching me. He put out his hand and I take his hand. On that time, I could see my father is smiling happily. I smiled back just to make him happy. All I can see on that time was flashing lights everywhere, and I just walk according to my father’s steps. On that time, I could feel that I was gasping for air, and the lights suddenly turn black. Then I think I tripped and I don’t know what happen next.

TO BE CONTINUE...

Thursday 22 December 2011

LOVE???

Catches your eyes by putting that titile? Hehe.. It was nothing much actually. Sebenarnye topic yg sy cuba nk sampaikan ari ni ialah berkenaan cinta: kawan baik or kekasih.
                Ok, i know it sounds silly, but well, i try to make this clear k? Topic ni aku dpt sebnrnye setelah aku dgr hot fm am crew, segment dear fara tu.. Dalam segment tu, ade sorg gadis ni is about to get married, tp dilemanya dia harus memilih antara teman lelakinya ataupun kawan baik dia. Dia bg detail pasal dua2 laki ni macamni lah aku bg table cket:
Teman lelaki
Kawan baik
Dia sgt syg n cinta
Dia suka (nmepun kawan baik)
Sgt syg kt dia(well nmepun bf,wat do u expect?)
Luahkan yg sgt syg kt dia(well,frenship usually turns to bcome dis way sometimes)
Family knl
Pilihan famili

                Bg aku, bab family ni yg parah cket ni.. ye la, syg mcmne pun kt pakwe kite, bile family ckp no, kdg2 kite rs mcm sedih,tp, wat to do, they lived with us for like ages, they do know us best kn? Tapi itu ape yg kite ckp..
                Aku plg ske 2 pemanggil yg bg pendapat kt hot fm.. kedua2nya berdasarkan pengalaman.. sorg yg memilih kekasih atinya, sorg lg yg memilih kwn baiknya sbgai teman idup. Akan tetapi.. both gives a negative statement to me.. i guess..
                Pemanggil yg memilih boyfren over kwn baik: dia sgt nyesal dgn keputusan dia sebab after some years of marriage, diorg divorced. Atas sebab, cinta tnpa restu buat perkahwinan diorg disaster. By years of marriage, asyik gado,about money, about family, and end up nothing can do except divorce. Bg aku lah kan, perkahwinan diorg ni xblh bertahan sebab perempuan tu ade perasaan bersalah, the feeling of guilt psl kwn baik ditinggalkan mcm tu je, family yg kmpem support la perkhwinan diorg ni, n perasaan yg xdiluahkan antara husband n wife tu penyebab diorg divorce. Kalo dr segi ape yg aku ckp tu, kompem la kog tau aku tgh ckp psl pompuan tu yg ade problem sbnrnye kan? Aku sbg pompuan, aku sendiri kne ngaku, pompuan bab2 emotion mmg sgt lah lemah. True story ok? Bile mula rs guilty, diorg akn mula rs xkne.. bile cucuk2 sket, makin lame makin truk.. nk bahagia, t’pk bahagia ke aku skrg ni? Kalo aku dgn dia tu aku lbh bahagia ke? Sumpah,kalo pompuan tu jenis xtau pilihan dia tepat or not lah kan.. ataupun t’lalu terpk, btul ke kalo mcmni or mcm tu lbh baik, pdhal yg dihadapan dia sbnrnye blh jd yg terbaik.. the best part bile dis lady cite psl dia jmpe blik besfren dia tu after dia divorce, he was married.. and she thinks he lived happily ever after. I mean dats how she describes in my opinion. Ape lg blh dibuat kalo dh mcm tu kan? Perasaan xlepas tu bahaya sbnrnye.. perasaan xlps tu yg makan diri kite.. btul.. som people can live with their feeling of guilt for a long time tp xpernah puas ape yg ade kt dia.. its like taboo u know..
                Another one plak memilih her bf sbb xsanggup menolak pilihan keluarga. Tp dia ckp: ‘perasaan kite as a fren ssh nk diubah atau dipupuk jd more than a fren. Org ckp syg blh dipupuk, tp kalo dh terlalu lme kite berkwn dgn seseorg tu, nk ubahkan jd cinta, mmg ssh. Lpas 5 thun kawen, finally, kata putus dibuat, kitorg divorce jugak’ wow! Betapanye besar perasaan or emotion can live in a person life. Tp after some months she divorced, dia t’jmpe blik dgn kekasih ati dia, to cut it short, dia kawen dgn kekasih dia tu, walaupun pd mulanya dia ragu2 dgn keputusan dia.. tap her marriage only last for 3 years because he died. This lady nyesal sgt2 x pilih kekasih ati dia at the first place, sbb dia rs kalo dia dh kawen awl2 lg dia akn dpt like almost 8-10 years of marriage with the guy she luved. Tp tyme tu aku t’pk, mungkin jodoh dia mmg with dat guy, tp, mungkin jugak jodoh diorg tu mmg pnjg tu je.. 3 thun.. Allah dh ciptakan sesuatu atas sesuatu. Semua yg tercipta ade misi dan matlamat masing2, suppose u must not regret, at least he had been with u n make u the happiest person on earth, although for some time only.
                Tapi ni plak pndgn aku kalo aku diberi pilihan yg sme.. i wont go for my best fren.. ntah la, at one point, aku terpk, kwn baik sgt knl kite mcm ne, tp bile dia jd som1 special, tetibe part2 bes tu jd xbes.. unlessssss u r falling in luv without realising it. Itu kes len.. or korg jd besfrens jus bcoz xsanggup luka n melukai each other.. in other meaning: perasaan syg tu ade, tp xtau smpi mne blh thn.. tp itu kes lain.. wateva happen, think back. Kdg2 suka, kasih, syg n cinta ni sgt ssh ditafsirkan.. tp aku blh define cinta je.. cinta tu bile bende yg plg mustahil kite suka r bende yg plg kite benci lihat org len buat, tp bile org yg kite cinta buat, kite seolah2 ignore or in other hand: xperasan pun. I know how it is, n for me, cinta tu indah n membuat hidup kite makin indah, tp cinta terhadap pencipta kite lbh baik.. kalo kite ade perasaan cinta, mengadu lah pd Allah, andai dia jodoh kite, Allah akn dekatkan dgn sempurna.. InsyaAllah..

Saturday 26 November 2011

SCARLET LETTER


Pelik x title post aku kali ni?
Aku pun tgh terfikir.. nape aku tetibe blh terfikir pasal scarlet letter...
Mungkin sebab lagu yg satu ketika dlu org dok nyanyi2 kot..
Lagu yg memperkenalkan Taylor Swift ke seluruh dunia..
Igt x? Igt x?
Haaaa... bg yg xigt, aku nk igtkan..
Jd aku dh sediakan lyirk lgu dgn utube skali..
(alaaa xmungkin la org xigt)
Jadi, hayati lirik lagu ni, n nnt aku cite psl scarlet letter k?
Taylor Swift-Love Story lyrics

We were both young when I first saw you

I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights
See the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go, and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was begging you please don't go and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

Romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story baby just say yes
Oh oh

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said

Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head? I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring

And said, marry me Juliet
You'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress
It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh, oh, oh, oh
'Cause we were both young when I first saw youMcm yg aku janjikan..

Aku akn cite cket ape yg aku tau psl ‘scarlet letter’ ni..
Ape bnde scarlet letter ni?
Sebab aku curious sgt nk tau,aku pun google
‘A scarlet letter is something that tells of your flaws, weaknesses or wrongdoings without words...a tell tale sign.’
Sebenarnye, aku tau ade ‘play’ (bg yg xtau play tu ape,play tu mcm theatre la,or filem zmn dlu2.. ala,mcm cite romeo n Juliet tu, bende tu play sbnrnye,ade skrip sume) pasal scarlet letter ni.. tp aku mcm xpasti play tu berkenaan dengan ape.. aku memang pengemar play2 lame ni, tp aku slalu ske cri yg mcm ade unsur2 ballet.. tu pun sbb dlu aku terpengaruh dgn cite princess tutu, eagerly to know wat this and that.. ok, scarlet letter ni sebenarnye kisah psl sorg yg diberi nama Hester.. disebabkan kesalahan yg dia dh buat tu kire melampau, so dia diberi satu kain yg ade huruf A berwarna scarlet utk menandakan kesalahan yg dia dh buat (wow!if only we cn do dat to person who made huge mistake to us.. ok, joking).. btw, warna scarlet ni wrna merah lbh kurg macam merah hati la.. can google it if u want to know it better.. korg terfikir x nape A?A tu singkatan adultery.. ape tu adultery? Adultery is when you cheat on someone.
Itu berkenaan play scarlet letter, skrg ni, nk cite plak, nape taylor swift gne perkataan scarlet letter kt lagu dia.. atas sbb maksud scarlet letter tu flaws,weakness ataupun wrongdoing without words, sebab tu la dlm lagu atas ade scarlet letter.. taylor swift nk bgtau yg percintaan dia n romeo tu adalah satu yg slh, plus dia nk bgtau dia ade byk weakness yg rmi tau/x(not sure which)..disebabkan itu la,percintaan dia jd difficult..tp dia rs this love is real,xsngup lpaskan.. perkara yg buat aku tertarik dgn lagu ni dlu ialah dia cuba tukar version romeo n Juliet yg pttnye sedih ending dia,jd somtin yg kite always wanted.. a happy ending..
p/s: it’s a really long post,isn’t it?i cud do longer actually, but no one wud like to read it then.. =D

DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP

sebelum aku memulakan mukadimah aku, ign aku ckp, 
ni opinion aku sbg sorg perempuan...
plus, ni jugak opinion aku atas ape yg aku rs...
andai ade yg xpuas ati, aku mintak maaf awl2, sbb ni opinion aku..
kalo ade yg nk hambur aku lpas ni, aku xlayan sgt la beb/bro...

sebenarnye aku terbc kt satu blog ni bout distance relationship
aku promote la cket blog yg mne k?
kalo blh, bc la n pk2 la psl opinion dia jugak..
xslh kumpul opinion org ye dak?

bg aku, distance relationship is when i dun 1 to give any commitment to the exact person.
now2.. terkejut dgn statement aku?
bg aku, andai aku btul nk serious dgn seseorg, aku xkan pilih org yg berada berjauhan dgn aku..
tp aku xckp org yg buat distance relationship ni as diorg x serious dlm hubungan, tp kalo aku, aku xnk serious dgn org tu..
and the very rigid point is: mcm cik penulis blog fakta termaktub ckp la, kalo ade bf, tp dia xblh tlg anytime u need him, wats the point.. n to b honest, kalo ko dh kawen n terpaksa berjauhan dgn laki ko, itu cite len, nk tau ape yg aku jwb utk soklan mcm ni? sbb tu aku ckp, kalo aku nk start a relationship,tp aku pilih org yg jauh, maknenye aku xserious... kalo laki aku nk keje tmpt jauh, aku rs aku xkn lpskn laki aku sewenang2nye.. tp xmaksud aku mengongkong.. tgk l kan kalo aku ade aki nnt mcmne,aku xblh nk ckp pape skrg..

andai aku ade boyfriend, aku nk dia xslalu dgn aku, tp xslalu abaikan aku..
xbermaksud dia kne ade 24/7 dgn aku n xmaksud sepanjang mase dia kne kuar mkn dgn aku..
aku lbh selesa dgn seminggu sekali jmpe,tp yg plg penting: HE MUST BE THERE WHENEVER I NEED!!!
sbb tu la dia kne dkt dgn aku,bile dkt, bru blh bg commitment..

kalo distance relationship ni, bg aku la kan.. aku jus nk memain la maksudnye..
or lbh bes lagi kalo aku ckp: aku jus nk kurangkan rs sunyi aku je...
ye la, bile jauh kan kite xtau ape yg org tu buat,
kite rs mcm terkinje2 nk tau ape dia ni buat ari ni, rs mcm eh, ari ni aku xmsg ko, ko rindu x?
sorry kalo ayat aku ni mcm menganjing, tp mcm aku ckp, ni opinion..
kalo org tu dkt, aku rs, xde mslh aku xmsg sgt pun dgn org tu..
tau2 dia dh dpn mata ajak kuar..(ceh, ayat nk drama je kan?)
hahha.. btul... walaupun de teknologi, tp bg aku kalo a guy ask for a date dpn mata aku..
kompem, aku cair.. hahha.. tp haruslah kene caranye.. xde la men redah je kan...
aku rs kalo yg ajak trus dpn mata ni aku trus terime maksud: aku mmg dh lme ske ko kot... besnye ko ajak aku kuar... hahaha.. kalo aku mcm tnye2:nape aku kne ikut? maksud: ko ade potensi je, tp rejection is 70%...
mestila sbb ade org dlm ati aku,jus kalo aku rs bosan, aku terime.. mak aih siot giler ayat aku...aka aku xserious dgn ko, jgn igt aku akn bg ko komitment..
wor3.. seriously, aku rs mcm aku gurl yg jahat tetibe, tp seriously, cinta itu sesuatu yg xblh dipaksa, rs syg blh dipupuk tp,ske tu sesape pun blh.. tp satu lg kne igt, pakwe/bf adelah org yg plg kite nk bile kite perlukan.. bile dia sngup buat mcm2 utk kite, sbb tu la rs syg tu lg timbul.. tp, andai org tu jauh, kdg2 kite sedaya upaya dktkan hati kite, tp yg len akn jd, bg og yg blh buat distance relationship, aku tabik korg, tp bg aku la kan..
aku hnye buat distance relationship dgn org yg aku xserious,n jus mengisi masa lapang aku.. seriously... 

Friday 25 November 2011

LOVE IS JUST A HORMONE


All of sudden, it’s a kind of thing that I cud share..
Some people jus don’t believe in fate, destiny, nor love...
Kalo org tnye aku, seriously, aku mmg xpercy cinta tu wujud..
Aku percaya kasih sayang tu wujud..
Cinta tu, barely in my mind it do exist..
Kalo org tnye aku, nape paranoid dgn cinta?
Aku akn ckp:cinta buat sume bende jd buta, xkenal ape yg btul, ape salah..
Berlainan dengan sayang..bile sayang, kite akn buat terbaik utk yg disayangi, slagi xmudaratkan..
Sayang akan buat kite tlg berfikir utk org yg kite syg, bile dia ssh, kite sngkan,bile kite sng,kite share together..
Tp, aku percaya qada’ n qadar.. itu maksud, aku percaya dgn takdir aka fate n destiny..
Disebabkan aku yg xpercaya cinta itu wujud atau perlu diwujudkan, aku mula acting egoist.. aku xkan tunjuk aku syg pun kt org yg aku syg.. dpn org, lg la.. cian sape jd bf aku kan? You have to be real somtin 4 me to make me act the way u wanted.. of coz u have to...tp, org yg btul syg kite xkn ubah diri kite.. if we kinda person yg ske luahkan perasaan kt fb, dia xkn bising2 utk suro kite ubah diri kite.. org yg syg kite akn terime diri kite ape adenye.. n of coz, akan hormat keputusan kite..
Love is jus a hormone.. true love is in our own heart to determine..
p/s: i love my family and frens.. i do love someone else, but, i think,i need to love Allah more.. ye la, yg aku sayang tu manusia, manusia buat kesilapan, manusia xsempurna, tp Allah akn bg kt aku kesempurnaan dalam pencarian.. org yg cukup sifatnye yang mampu buat aku rs sempurna.. nobody is perfect, but someone will complete us and make us feel completely perfect.. 

FILEM MELAYU


Bile kite g tgk wayang je, kompem kite plg xkn cri filem melayu kan?
Reason? Sebab cite melayu ni, kejap2 lg, kompem masuk utube, dh blh tgk full version..
Ade lg satu sebab.. sebab filem melayu ni, kompem adaptasi dr filem mne2..
Aku sem lpas mmg plg byk aku tgk cite kt wayang cite melayu r kot.. asal ado je, aku g tgk..
Sebab tyme sem lpas tu, byk cite hantu kt wayang, aku mmg xgemar btul cite hantu ni.. thriller tu len r, tgk gak yg jenis mcm ne.. ade yg aku layan je..
Tp aku nk cite, aku kagum dgn cite bini-bini ku gangster..
Xkisah lah ape yg org ckp ps muvi tu, aku akn still ckp, muvi tu bes..
Aku terbc satu fb perempuan ni ckp cite ni mmg 100% tiru cite korea..
Aku blh ckp satu je, kalo 100%, org korea mne kawen lbh dr 1..
Aku kagum dgn watak Yana Samsudin..
Dia btul2 buat watak yg buat aku hampir nangis..
Ko byg kan.. mcmne sorg perempuan yg sgt syg kt suami dia..
Xsanggup bgtau kt hubby dia yg dia still gangster, n dia terpakse sembunyi2 utk berbakti utk bapak dia n hubby dia..
Aku tabik perempuan yg mcm ni.. seriously..
Yg lebih buat aku tabik dgn watak Yana kt dlm cite ni, is when she decided to give her husband 2nd wife..
Bygkan part yg mmg aku nk nangis tp air mata aku ssh giler nk kuar(xtau nape) is part yg dia n Sam kt tepi koridor tu..
Aku rs kalo Sam xbuat lawak after dat, kompem berderu air mata kuar..
Wanita ni org yg sangat tabah.. aku tgk cite ni, aku senyum cket, nk tau nape?
Dlm part yg dia cakap dgn Sam, dia nk bg Sam kawen dgn Intan, she put all her heart to say that.. u can see from her eyes.. dia nk husband dia happy, sebab tu dia bg.. betapa baiknye dia.. pdhl, the only reason dia bg Sam kawen len ialah sebab dia xblh pregnant je..(ok, in Islam, that is the best reason for a guy to ask for 2nd wife) pdhl, dia blh buat sume bende.. siap jd housewife semata2 nk jd isteri solehah.. kalo btul wujud wanita mcm ni, aku btul tabik dia.. sebak Yana tyme dia bgtau reason dia nk bg Sam kawen len tu.. bgusnye..
Wanita ni, kalo diorg diceraikan, or hubby dia mati, insyaAllah dia xkn cri lelaki len.. terutama skali kalo dia dh ade anak dgn ex-husband dia.. ank bg seorg perempuan itu, tanda kasih sayang dia kt lelaki.. igt mudah ke seorg wanita mengandung? 9 bulan terpaksa tahan alahan(some do have it till the child born).. kalo bkn alahan, dia kne tahan kandungkan anak tu.. berat tau beban yg dia tggung.. lg satu,xsemestinye wanita tu akn hidup selepas melahirkan.. ade yg meninggal selepas itu.. xkan semudah itu wanita yg dh kematian suami or cerai dgn suaminya blh senang lenang memcari ‘cinta’ len.. atas sebab, ade ank yg dia tggung.. ank2 ini lah yg dia akn syg sampai dia mati, xmintak balasan..
Tetibe tajuk dr filem melayu, jd perihal wanita.. aku sebenarnye kagum dgn ibu yg mampu melahirkan ramai anak.. (mama, nape qalmi xde adik beradik yg ramai? Xpe la, 4 org adik beradik ni pun mama xterjg.. hehe) lg plak yg kehilangan suami.. sumpah aku kagum.. utk mama aku, qalmi pun kagum dgn mama.. macamne pun mama kekadang sangat la paranoid, tp qalmi sedar, itu kan nasihat? Qalmi pun sedar knp mama jd mcm tu.. qalmi bertuah ade mama abah.. qalmi sgt kagum mama blh besarkan kitorg berempat, pdhl, kitorg sgt la nakal.. mama, abah, qalmi sayang mama abah tau.. (tetibe rs sedih..)
Back to our real topic.. jgn la ckp filem melayu ni asyik ciplak je.. kdg2 mmg diorg ambek idea dr satu2 filem yg len,  tp, take the other way round punye perspective.. i wud be real glad if kite xmerendahkan bangsa kite sendiri.. kate Malaysia boleh.. jd, support anything about Malaysia ok? 

Thursday 3 November 2011

SOMETHING CAME UP TO MY MIND


Dh dekat sebulan aku msuk sem bru ni, bru la sempat aku nk melepak kt bilik member aku yg kolej dia berlainan dgn aku..
Dh dekat 4 thun aku belajar kat IPTA ni.. sethun setgh foundation, selebihnye degree..
Punye la aku rs tua dok lme2 kt cni..
Tp yg aku lbih terase, bile aku jmpe member aku ni..
Ialah, bile aku ternampak gambar yg aku edit, khas buat dia, sebab satu mse dlu, kitorg gado xbercakap, beberape minggu..
Terigt peristiwa kitorg perang dingin tu, aku gelak sorg2..
Sebab lpas aku bg gambar tu, dia ckp: aku pun xigt dh ape bende yg aku marah kt ko..
Aku gelak sgt2..
Lawak la tyme tu..
Ade satu lg sebab aku terase sayu bile dia cite kt aku psl salah sorg geng(secara xsgaje) kitorg, dh x nk smbung pengajian..
Ya Allah, sedihnye, terase sgt bile kwn aku cite, dia sedih bile kwn kitorg tu dimain2kan namanya bile lecturer sebut nama dia kt kelas..
Sebelum aku cite psl ape yg berlaku kt member aku ni, bek aku cite mcmne geng kitorg ni blh wujud...
Dlu tyme kitorg foundation, aku plg rapat dgn A n K.. sebab diorg rum8 aku, n aku ni kire flexible gak r, blh lepak dgn geng diorg, si A ade member rapat guy C.. C plak satu bilik dgn E n M.. M ni plak sekelas dgn A n K.. get the idea? Hopefully u do.. geng ni kire plg sempoi la bg aku, aku blh jd childish.. blh bhn membahan.. blh jd diri aku.. A n K pun ske bwk aku ke geng diorg sebab diorg nmpk aku hepi giler dpt member2 sporting mcm C, E n M.. siyes, diorg sporting..
Tp tyme kitorg dh mula bwk haluan masing2, A dgn aku satu kos-under food, K n M satu kos-vet, E plak kos dia bedekatan dgn tmpt foundation kitorg dlu, C plak g ambek aquaculture kot, xigt sgt, 2 years back punye incident.. tyme ni, mmg susah btul nk jmpe sorg2.. yg mmg agk slalu jmpe ialah aku, A, M dgn K.. itu pn sbb aku satu kelas dgn A, pastu aku slalu lepak bilik K, so secara xlgsg, jmpe M.. E dgn C, ntah ape cite diorg.. tp tyme tu, xpk sgt..tp diorg berdua tu satu kolej je dgn aku n A,tp ssh nk jmpe.. C dgn xtvt dia, mcm tu gak dgn E.. kdg2 terserempak, nk tegur, pun segan, pdhl dlu satu geng..
Xlme lpas tu, dgr plak cite si C dh tukar kos.. n dh x stay kolej.. kompem lg ssh la nk jmpe, lepak2 dgn geng kan? Tp, tyme tu pk, kitorg dh makin sibuk dgn hal masing2, xleh nk buat ape la kan..
Now, when i hear about M, n E..(shudnt tell wat happen to E act..) suddenly it came to my mind, one of my fren turns to jerk.. n another turns to be so obsessive?  Wat happen to the geng? I felt so mad to see wat happen, frenship turns to frenshit i guess.. but, it jus so hard to see the geng is splitting.. owh.. lpe nk bgtau ape jd kt M..
M dpt vet, n den he was obsess with getting more money while studying.. skrg, dia berhenti belajar, semata2 sebab rs the degree he will get is not worth it.. money is everything for him rite now.. aku tnye kt K, if we can have a slow talk with M? He suppose to gain somtin in his way.. kalo xjd sume tu? He have to do diploma den? N K jus blh ckp kt aku: qalmi, kitorg dh berckp dgn dia, tp, xmenjd.. dia rs seolah2 nasihat kitorg ni penghalang dia nk berjy..
 aku terase sedih.. aku hope sgt, this geng cud be together again.. i cud be childish girl yg bhn membahan diorg blik.. rindu sgt saat tu.. tp, ape kan daya.. mungkin satu masa nnt, kitorg dh berjy nnt, bru kitorg bersatu blik? Tyme tu mungkin, masing2 dh kawen, dh beranak pinak.. i’m not sure kan?
p/s: entry kali ni xberunsur happiness lgsg.. tp, its a saying of: i wud like my frens to be together.. n at one point nnt, tlg la.. sume tlg berjy dlm idup korg.. insyaAllah aku akn bwk haluan aku jugak nnt, tp, aku nk jmpe korg sume dlm keadaan plg terbaik.. i’ll miss the geng we used to be.. i had miss the way we had fun always while in this geng.. i jus will always miss each memories u gave me.. n thnx.. 

Monday 31 October 2011

INGATAN SEUMUR HIDUP


Aku teringat psl satu bende ni..
About somtin, yg kawan sekolah aku cakap..
It is a good advice..
Aku akn igt sampai mati..
Bende ni psl relationship..
Aku sangat tabik dgn dia..
Boleh berfikiran matang...

1st advice yg aku terime bulat2 dari dia ialah bile aku cite, aku cian tgk kwn aku, dipermainkan..
Dia jawab satu je dengan aku..
Remember this always, it’s applicable to your fren, n u too..
‘bile ko ditinggalkan, buat la bende yg plg ko rs nk buat, menangis la sekuat hati ko, lepaskan perasaan terpendam, jgn nangis sebab org yg tinggalkan ko, tp nangis sebab ko nk lepaskan geram ko, bile bgun esk pagi, bear this in your mind: dia tinggalkan aku,bermaksud, dia bukan utk aku, dia xlayak utk aku, n dia bukan yg terbaik utk aku, jd, hingga masa tu sampai, akn ade seorg yg terbaik utk aku.. Allah dh janjikan yg terbaik utk diri kite’
Ade satu hari tu plak, aku tanye kan psl relationship kt sorg kawan aku yang lain..
Persoalan aku kt kawan aku ni:
Adakah ko akn terime ex ko yg betray kt ko?(persoalan ini jus nk tgk penerimaan seseorg,cara dia memaafkan org..)
I was shocked, because of 2 kind of statements.. 1st was if dia in relationship, n 2nd if dia single..
1st statement:
‘kalo aku dh ade gf, merayu lah mcmne pun ex aku dtg kt aku, n dia btul2 mintak maaf skali pun, aku xkan terime.. past is past, future is coming through..’
Aku tersentap dgr statement dia.. Ya Allah, betapa bgusnya org yg aku bercakap ni.. Alhamdulillah Ya Allah, Kau bg aku keyakinan yg manusia ni macam2 ragamnya, xsama bg setiapnya,walaupun org pernah ckp: ah, lelaki ni sume same je.. xpun: perempuan ni sume menyusahkan.. tapi, setelah aku berckp dgn kawan aku ni, aku yakin, manusia ni mcm2 ragamnya, n i am looking forward to see the way people acting in their lives..
2nd statement:
‘kalo aku xde gf, kalo aku tgk, ex aku tu btul2 mintak maaf, aku memang akan maafkan dia.. hei, people makes mistakes.. semakin kite dewasa, kite akn paham erti kedewasaan.. makin kite matang.. kalo kite dipermainkan utk beberape byk kali skali pun, andai itu memang niat dia, Allah kan ade? Allah Maha Adil, walau mcmne pun org tu doa mintak ampun kt Allah, Allah akn ampunkan dia, InsyaAllah, tp, kan Allah dh berfirman, jaga lah hubungan mu dgn Ku, dan jaga lah hubungan mu sesame manusia.. Allah akn jg yg teraniaya itu..’
I was so speechless on dat day..  aku rs mcm byk bende yg aku dh lupe, byk yg aku alpa, hurm... Alhamdulillah, Allah gives me a fren who make me realise things in different perspectives.. so dat i become a better person.. Thank You Allah..
Aku sangat rs hepi sebab aku rs, keliling aku, ramai sgt kawan2 yg buat aku sedar yg byk bende aku dh lupa, byk bende yg aku perlu igt..
The best advice I gain through my life about relationship is:
                ‘dalam satu hubungan tu, yg penting bukan pengorbanan yg kite buat.. xperlu buat mcm2 utk org yg kite sayang, tp, tgk2, dia pergi tinggalkan kite, utk org len.. tyme tu, kite rs seolah2, dunia ni dh tunggang terbalik, seolah2 xde life lg lpas ni.. walhal, hidup kite bru je bermula lagi, pas kekecewaan yg melanda tu.. yg penting dalam satu2 hubungan itu ialah tanda ingatan.. xperlu msg panjang2 setiap hari, kadang2 kite rs xpuas msg setakat, ‘hai’, ’sihat x?’, ‘buat ape ari ni?’.. tp, kan lebih elok org yg maintain hubungan dgn kite, berbanding org yg kononnye sanggup buat mcm2 utk kite? Bile dia tetibe ade problem, dia cite kt kite, itu bermaksud org tu trust kt kite, makin lame, relationship korg akan teguh.. satu msg sehari pun, cukup buat kite hepi..’
Aku pk sebaik mungkin dgn advice tu, mcmne plak one msg only can make evryting fine? Bukan ke kite akn makin xpuas kalo kite jarang bermsg dgn org yg kite syg? Bukan ke kite akn rs mcm perlu bermsg dgn dia bile kite rindu? I dun get the point either.. tp, i’ll take dat as the best advice, sebab, (mcm aku pernah ckp, aku ni bab2 ni memang jahil... how to lose a guy in less than a year, aku memang expert la kot? Ok, dats a joke) aku rs, bende yg bes bile kite in relationship ialah trust pasangan kite, it’s not like 100%, tp, trust is still trust..
Bende yg aku plg ske ialah, bile kite ade prob, Allah buat kite realise, Allah sentiase dgn kite, kite sedih, Dia bg kegembiraan, kite lupa, Dia bg perigtan.. kite leka, Dia tunjuk jalan yg benar.. kan dh diberitahu, Allah xkan ubah naseb hamba-Nya, slagi Hamba-Nya xubah naseb sendiri.. macam itu a jugak perangai seseorg, xde sape blh ubah perangai kite, attitude kite, slagi kite xambek peluang itu, utk berubah sendiri.. mungki org blh kate: ko pttnye mcmni n mcm tu,tp, yg berubah itu diri sendiri.. yg decide tu, diri sendiri.. org len, jus blh ckp je.. mungkin, ckp je tu pun blh ubah org tu, tp ke arah keburukan.. who knows.. it makes somtin to change som1..
p/s: perigtn kt sini ialah, perubahan yg berlaku, bkn sebab org len, sebab diri sendiri yg nk.. kalo ade kemahuan, ape pun blh jd.. 

Friday 28 October 2011

NO FINGER CROSSED


Korg mesti terpk kan?
Ape maksud title entry ni?
Relax.. org slalu kate(omputih la) tell truth n no finger crossed..
Ok, maksud no finger crossed ialah, jgn menipu..
Tp entry kali ni bukan maksud aku akn menipu atau penipu..
Tp aku nk cite sesuatu yg aku tau berlaku kt keliling aku..

Kadang-kadang kite xsedar ape yg jd kt kite,
Sampai satu mase,
Kite akn terpaksa berbohong demi menutup sesuatu..
Bg aku, berbohong dan xberckp ape yg ptt dickp itu 2 perkara berbeza..
Hurm...
Ok, sebab entry kali ni dh disebut, no finger crossed, maksud, sepanjang entry ni, aku perlu bersikap jujur..
Bukan bermaksud aku xjujur slame ni k?
Haha..

Aku terigt tyme member aku cite kt aku, dia terjumpe ex-bf dia blik..
Aku igt dia nk cite ape la sgt kan?
Tp dia jus ckp: aku hepi dowh, dia dh ade gf, gf dia plak baik giler kot..

Aku pndg dgn cara yg pelik..sambil tu aku pun tnye: beb, ko kate ko tunggu ex ko tu dh lme,tp, ko blh plak ckp mcm ni? Aku xphm ape yg ko try sampaikan..(seriously, aku sgt jahil bab2 kapel ni..)
Dia smbung: aku bahagia kot tgk dia hepi gler dgn awek dia, bab aku tunggu tu, ltk kt tepi blh x? Seriously, aku still ske dia, no doubt, tp, melihat dia bahagia, itu yg aku plg bahagia.. nk tau x nape?

Aku jus geleng je pale, sebab, beb, aku xphm ape yg dia try smpikan kt aku... sebab aku tgk member aku yg sorg lg merana, bf dia tgglkan dia, semata2 utk perempuan, yg bf dia tau, perempuan tu dh tunggu dia lame giler.. (bab yg ni pn aku xphm, bro, ko dh ade awek kot? Pastu tggl je awek ko utk pompuan len? Aku xphm dunia ni) ok, get back to the real story, k qalmi?

Dia smbung lg: ko tau x, secara teorinye, aku yg tgglkan ex aku tu,tp bkn utk org len,tp sbb aku rs, kitorg xkn ke mne,muda sgt kot tyme tu nk in relationship aku rs.. kalo skrg ni, bru la logik kalo aku nk in relationship doesn’t mean to him,i mean, anyone.. jd bile aku tgk, dia hepi dgn org yg dia syg, dia jujur dgn org yg dia syg, aku bahagia tgk dia bahagia.. sungguh.. aku akn tunggu kebahagiaan dtg kt aku.. when i say dis words there is no finger crossed tau..

Waktu dia ckp mcm tu, aku makin xphm.. dlm ati aku ckp: dear qalmi, u didn’t know wat luv is, not yet the time to know wat is luv, nnt, bile org yg btul smpi kt ko, bru ko akn phm.. cinta tu blh buat kite merana, cinta tu jugak akn bwk ko ke arah bahagia.. mungkin ko akn kecewa dlu sblum bhgia, mungkin ko mmg trus bahagia, it depends qalmi..

Tapi to be honest, my fren turns out to be a very hepi person after dat.. im not sure wat happened, tp, dia btul2 lbh yakin dgn diri dia, secara xsedar, dia mengubah diri dia, bkn ubah ke arah yg truk, tp, i dunno how to say, she’s more mature to me.. thnx to you, sbb walaupun ko xtau ape yg ko dh buat, tp, ko bntu dia jd lbh baik.. dia lbh social skrg ni, dlu dia tu penakut cket, skrg,dia dh makin ok, blh bergaul dgn sume org, bgusnye..

It turns out, manusia ni hanye akn berubah bile dia nk berubah, n dia xkn sedar yg dia berubah.. tp, manusia yg len, xberhak ckp: ko ni truk, ko kne berubah.. it takes a ‘thing’ to make a person change.. bg my fren, it’s her ex.. for me, mayb situasi yg melanda.. tgk la mcm ne kan?

p/s: memandangkan entry kali ni ade sentuh psl luv, nex entry is about an advice to everyone psl in relationship.. I think, the advice is so applicable to everyone.. 

Wednesday 26 October 2011

A STORY TO TELL

               Entry sebelum ni aku xbgtau ape yg akan aku tulis kt entry yg bru ni kan? Sebenarnye, aku xtau pun ape yg bakal aku tulis, tapi mcm aku ckp kt 1st entry dlu, blog ni tempat aku luahkan perasaan, slalunye berkenaan org len yg aku nampak la..
                Memandangkan ramai org yg memilih 11 november 2011 sebagai tarikh diorg nikah (termasukla kakak aku sendiri) sebab tarikh tu macam bes kan.. sorry sis, to be honest, im so jealous of you getting married.. ok, not exactly you, im jealous to, it’s your fiancĂ©e.. ye la kan, bertahun aku hidup dgn ko, skrg ko dh nk kawen, my only sister is getting married.. wat shud i think of? Hurrmmmm... xpe, as time goes by, we will see wats going to happen.. hehe..
                Ade satu ari ni, the ladies of this family went for a window shopping.. kt jln. TAR, mencari bju dan accessories utk wedding kakak aku tu.. as we all know, kalo perempuan, jalan TAR ni memang macam heaven la kan utk shopping, sape yg tengah xde duit, nk g window shopping tu memang rs mcm nk bunuh diri la kalo dh jmpe brg yg berkenan.. (ok, those was a bit hyperbola.. hei, but its true wat?)
                The point right here is that, kitorg tige org perempuan ni pun berjalan-jalan sambil tgk kiri dan kanan, cari barang dan utk aku, aku lbh ske tgk gelagat org yg membeli belah kt situ.. (FYI, aku ni jenis yg kalo window shopping, aku pndg je brg yg aku nk tgk dkt cermin tingkap tu, once aku nmpk yg aku berkenan, bru aku akn msuk kt kedai tu, bab membeli ni aku cerewet cket, kdg2 mak aku pun pening, ape taste aku yg sebenarnye.. sorry mama, i always make u feel xbes bile hang out together.. owh, dis applies to my sis also.. sorry sis, aku slalu rs mcm bile msuk mall je, nk kuar cepat2; only applicable bile shopping bju n girl stuffs; mama, y am i a girl btw?)
                Ok, skrg bru aku get rite to my real point, aku tgk org yg dh kawen, buat persiapan, dlm ati rs sebak cket, sebab akak aku nk kawen kan, tp bile tgk diorg bwk bju pengantin yg kire beli siap, xyah sewa kt kedai pengantin kan, rs mcm, ok, utk nikah, aku setuju la, tp thinking back, y nk beli? Unless your size isn’t there.. tp xpe la, mungkin aku sendiri pun akn beli satu bile aku kawen nnt,but mine, i’ll make sure it’s a real simple one. Aku nmpk satu bju songket putih yg sangat lawa, aku ckp kt akak aku, nnt aku nk yg mcm tu la bile aku kawen nnt, akak aku jawab: bju tu nme dia putri perak,all tyme fav, tp ye la kan, putih ni tkut xsume org blh pki.. mata aku pun nmpk ade satu lg bju putih cream cket yg ade manik2 yg simple je, cantik je aku rs, tp aku terigt ape yg lect BI aku ckp psl wedding ni.. dia ckp: why shud we have so elaborated wedding, inviting 2000 people, giving such door gifts like crystal cups and at the grand place.. wow! 1st tyme aku dgr seorg perempuan yang berkerja, berckp psl perkahwinan, nk simple je.. sgt bgus kot... tp blh di jangka sebab dia bukan la jenis perempuan yang ske melawa-lawa, pki make up tebal-tebal dan a very simple girl..
                The best thing i see people around me,is that, when i see my frens r getting married, ade yg dah kawen pun, ade anak and so on, i found out, it’s not dat i wanted to get marry, it jus dat i think, bgus la, korg dh sampi seru, insyaAllah, nnt kalo aku punye turn, i’ll make sure my frens blh dtg.. tp, kalo blh, it’s going to be my way of wedding.. mama, no such elaborated wedding k? Dan kalo boleh, aku nk tyme aku bertunang, it jus me, my family n the guy’s family.. jgn la buat besar-besaran.. plzzz mama? To my sis..hope u will be happy with wat u will get.. i’ll always pray 4 u.. =)
p/s: i did say no elaborated wedding, tp brg hantaran tu mmg kne ikut cara aku la kan? Haha.. itu mmg kne a bit melampau, tp still, insyaAllah, slagi xbebankan pihak lelaki.. aku doakan wedding akak aku berjln dgn lancar dan aku xnangis tyme akak aku kawen.. doakan semua terbaik dalam hidup kite akn terjd.. amin... 

Monday 24 October 2011

LELAKI SEPERTI KAMU

Wah, entry kali ni mesti korg igt aku akn ltk cite psl aku jmpe a guy yg mcm bes giler n so on kan?
Haha.. not really a story, tp ade cite disebalik lagu lelaki seperti aku tu yg aku dh ubah menjd reply version.. sorry to aliff satar sebab kire ubah lirik tnpe permission.. 
ni 1st tyme aku gubah (sbnrnye ubah je, bkn gubah sgt pun) lagu ikut ape yg aku rs..

Sebelum aku ltk lirik yg dh aku ubah tu, aku nk kasitau cket latar blkg nape aku ubah lgu tu.. 
well, xde la besar sgt knp aku gubah tu, mostly sebab aku nk bg perigtan kt org2 kt luar sne kot.. 
esp to guys, yeah, utk lelaki.. 
the story goes dis way: aku ade la sorg member kamcing aku ni, dia ni bkn la perempuan yg jenis nk gedik sgt dgn laki sebenarnye, dia slalunye fikir, laki ni buat kawan bes, pemikiran diorg len dr perempuan... 
so, one day, a guy came into her life, nk kapel dgn dia la, member aku ni, kire ok la kot org nye, dia jus ckp kt bdk laki tu: kalo ko ikhlas, ko tau ape ko kne buat, aku xnk aku kapel jus sebab member2 aku kate ko baik..
las2 member aku ni patah ati la gak kan, sebab dat guy xikhlas(bg dia la).. 
y? Hurmm.. xpe la, aku xberhak utk ckp pape,life org len, aku doa kan member kamcing aku ni akn jmpe org yg lbh baik dr budak laki tu, insyaAllah.. 
utk budak laki tu, aku jus blh ckp, wat goes around comes around..
ok, dats not the point why aku ubah lirik lagu ni.. 
tp aku rs ade kne ngene gak kot dgn cite aku td..
bru2 ni aku dikejutkan dgn cite sorg lg member aku tersuka dgn someone..
tp malangnye dat guy plak dh berpunye,, 
member aku yg patah ati ni pun ckp: aku lbh ske tgk org yg kapel tu hepi2 dr aku nk kaco idup diorg.. 
tp aku rs dia jd mcm tu sebab tgk member aku yg sorg tu bru lps frust kot, sebab tu dia xsanggup jugak,kecian kot tgk org patah ati, ntah, tp sebab dua situasi yg berlainan ni, aku plak yg sgt lah ske lgu aliff satar ni pun cuba mengubah lagu tu utk ditujukan kat dua org member aku ni, so, hope both of u enjoy the song I made..

Lelaki seperti aku –reply version-

Memang tak ada lelaki seperti kamu
Yang lebih baik jua tiada
Memang tak ada lelaki sehebat kamu
Yang lebih hebat jua pupus

Maka haruslah ku susah hati
Yang mana saja kan dapat ku pilih
Untuk ku jadikan sandaran hati

Memang tak ada lelaki seseksi kamu
Yang lebih seksi aku tak nak
Memang tak ada lelaki setampan kamu
Yang lebih tampan aku tak nak

Namun takkan ku memujuk kamu
Tak kan pula ku rendahkan diri ku
Memaksa kamu tuk jadi pacarku

*Oh baby baby
Ku takkan marah sebab kau tolak
Memang kamu terbaik
Takkan ku x tertarik
Memang susah buatku
Mencari yg terbaik
Oh baby
Ku tak kan dendam sebab kau enggan
Memang pun aku mahu
Bercinta dengan kamu
Tapi kau sudah ada
Kekasih yg menunggu

Aku memang tau kau seorg yg setia
Kerna dr itu aku takkan memaksa
Kerna aku xmau kau pula mendua*

(ulang *3x)

Memang tak ada lelaki seperti kamu
Yg lebih baik jua tiada

                Ok? So how was dat? Korg enjoy? Hehe.. igt nk je la aku nyanyikan, tp malang skali, aku xde sore yg sedap, jd, aku jus harap korg dpt msukkn nada dgn lirik di atas ye? Hehe..  to the gurls i mention, xpe, blum tibe masenye buat korg, kompem korg akn dpt yg terbaik utk korg, kalo bkn kt cni, Allah dh jnjikan di ‘sana’ nnt.. begitu jua lah azab ye.. jd buat sume, hepi2 jugak, ibadah jgn lupe, doakan yg terbaik buat sume k? Saling mengingatkan itu pun sesuatu yg perlu.. enjoy your day all.. =)

Sunday 23 October 2011

1st Entry

Semua org ade impian masing-masing tyme buat blog kan? 
Kebanyakkan org gne medium blog ni sebagai tempat melepaskan geram, tempat menceritakan hal2 yang berkaitan, ade jugak yg buat blog sebab nak isi masa lapang.. 
tp byk nye yg buat blog ni utk isi masa yg xbrape nak lapang pun, dh ade idea, buat je la kan?
Tp xblh nk ckp pape la kan, hak masing-masing buat blog ni.. 
macam member aku yg sorg ni ske berfesyen, jd dia buat blog plus video blog psl fesyen.. 
mmg bukan sifat aku la nk buat blog psl fesyen ni, walaupun aku perempuan..
   
Aku pun xnk bndingkan diri aku dgn penulis blog yg memang dh vogue dh, 
org dh kenal, bg aku, blog ni tempat aku luahkan perasaan..
kalo org kenal aku face to face, ramai akn kate aku ni either sombong atau memang xbrape peramah.. 
tp kalo dh kenal, ya ampuuuunnn.. 
mmg ssh nk tutup mulut.. 
ok, korg kne jmpe member kau sendiri, den they cud really tell u how I am.. 
bagi aku, penulisan sama ada berunsur lirik, cerpen, novel n blog ni bende plg mudah utk korg buat.. (ok,mungkin ssh buat org yg macam aku, once started,I don’t know how to stop..)
 which means, medium korg utk luahkan perasaan, sume org bc, komen, tp, xde sape blh marah korg..
hei, dats wat blog for rite? 
Ok, jgn la plak kite menunjuk aib org len kan? 
Itu mayb not really gud for the other party.. 
fungsi blog n twitter are the sme, kalo korg nk luahkan perasaan, luahkan seadanya, kalo org nk marah pun, kite jus blh ckp:
 'hei, mind your own privacy, this is mine, if u dun like, den dun read..' 
ok, korg mesti kate, arrogant giler minah yg buat blog ni, slambe je ckp mcm tu, igt dia bgus sgt ke? 
Tp, btul x ape yg aku ckp?
 Tp yg besnye bile ade org komen or ckp buruk2, kompem either rs down kejap, or bengang sorg2.. 
tp kalo aku, jrg r rs down, kompem bengang sorg2.. 
haha.. tp bile org komen kan, take positive(although its jus a word,aku bkn slalu take positive pun, tgk la keadaan) or improve la kan?
                
Manusia ni ragam mcm2.. kite xblh expect sume org mcm kite..
jd, kalo korg bc 1st entry aku ni, tetibe korg rs blog aku ni mmg xbes, xde unsur2 bes pun, n ape la yg bes sgt dgn blog ni? 
Aku xleh la nk merayu n ckp: tlgggg bbccccc entry syyyyy.. 
hehehe.. setiap manusia ade hak.. hak utk memilih.. 
korg blh pilih utk trus bc entry akn dtg, or stop at this 1st entry, aku blh ckp, itu hak korg, hak aku utk menulis xde sape blh halang.. iye dak? Hehe.. 
wat eva it is, as a human, be yourself, jgn berubah walaupun org ckp kite perlu berubah demi kebaikan, (for me,berubah itu bgus, tp menyuruh org berubah itu agk harsh kot, sbb by being som1 else, kite menipu diri sendiri,esp. sebab org yg suro kite berubah itu org yg kononye sayang kan kite, to be honest, if u luv som1, take them as their whole self, once u try to change dat person, u r actually not liking dat person as his/her own self)
perubahan akan berlaku sekiranye diri sendiri ign berubah, kite blh lihat keliling n nilai sendiri.. 
kite akan bersikap matang if dia mahu bersikap matang.. 
org yg muda pun kdg2 lbh bersikap matang sebab dia mampu berfikir dgn lbh baik.. 
perbezaan umur hanya setahun, tp kdg2 yg lbh tua tu perlukan nasihat dari yg lbh muda.. 
dunia ni pelik, jd, nilai sesuatu gne akal yg ade..

  Now I wonder wat my next entry wud be?
 Owh, rsnye i shud share a song lyrics to you..
 1st entry ni kan jus pengenalan.. i’ll c u later den.. =)