LOVE???

Catches your eyes by putting that titile? Hehe.. It was nothing much actually. Sebenarnye topic yg sy cuba nk sampaikan ari ni ialah berkenaan cinta: kawan baik or kekasih.

                Ok, i know it sounds silly, but well, i try to make this clear k? Topic ni aku dpt sebnrnye setelah aku dgr hot fm am crew, segment dear fara tu.. Dalam segment tu, ade sorg gadis ni is about to get married, tp dilemanya dia harus memilih antara teman lelakinya ataupun kawan baik dia. Dia bg detail pasal dua2 laki ni macamni lah aku bg table cket:

Teman lelaki	Kawan baik
Dia sgt syg n cinta	Dia suka (nmepun kawan baik)
Sgt syg kt dia(well nmepun bf,wat do u expect?)	Luahkan yg sgt syg kt dia(well,frenship usually turns to bcome dis way sometimes)
Family knl	Pilihan famili

                Bg aku, bab family ni yg parah cket ni.. ye la, syg mcmne pun kt pakwe kite, bile family ckp no, kdg2 kite rs mcm sedih,tp, wat to do, they lived with us for like ages, they do know us best kn? Tapi itu ape yg kite ckp..

                Aku plg ske 2 pemanggil yg bg pendapat kt hot fm.. kedua2nya berdasarkan pengalaman.. sorg yg memilih kekasih atinya, sorg lg yg memilih kwn baiknya sbgai teman idup. Akan tetapi.. both gives a negative statement to me.. i guess..

                Pemanggil yg memilih boyfren over kwn baik: dia sgt nyesal dgn keputusan dia sebab after some years of marriage, diorg divorced. Atas sebab, cinta tnpa restu buat perkahwinan diorg disaster. By years of marriage, asyik gado,about money, about family, and end up nothing can do except divorce. Bg aku lah kan, perkahwinan diorg ni xblh bertahan sebab perempuan tu ade perasaan bersalah, the feeling of guilt psl kwn baik ditinggalkan mcm tu je, family yg kmpem support la perkhwinan diorg ni, n perasaan yg xdiluahkan antara husband n wife tu penyebab diorg divorce. Kalo dr segi ape yg aku ckp tu, kompem la kog tau aku tgh ckp psl pompuan tu yg ade problem sbnrnye kan? Aku sbg pompuan, aku sendiri kne ngaku, pompuan bab2 emotion mmg sgt lah lemah. True story ok? Bile mula rs guilty, diorg akn mula rs xkne.. bile cucuk2 sket, makin lame makin truk.. nk bahagia, t’pk bahagia ke aku skrg ni? Kalo aku dgn dia tu aku lbh bahagia ke? Sumpah,kalo pompuan tu jenis xtau pilihan dia tepat or not lah kan.. ataupun t’lalu terpk, btul ke kalo mcmni or mcm tu lbh baik, pdhal yg dihadapan dia sbnrnye blh jd yg terbaik.. the best part bile dis lady cite psl dia jmpe blik besfren dia tu after dia divorce, he was married.. and she thinks he lived happily ever after. I mean dats how she describes in my opinion. Ape lg blh dibuat kalo dh mcm tu kan? Perasaan xlepas tu bahaya sbnrnye.. perasaan xlps tu yg makan diri kite.. btul.. som people can live with their feeling of guilt for a long time tp xpernah puas ape yg ade kt dia.. its like taboo u know..

                Another one plak memilih her bf sbb xsanggup menolak pilihan keluarga. Tp dia ckp: ‘perasaan kite as a fren ssh nk diubah atau dipupuk jd more than a fren. Org ckp syg blh dipupuk, tp kalo dh terlalu lme kite berkwn dgn seseorg tu, nk ubahkan jd cinta, mmg ssh. Lpas 5 thun kawen, finally, kata putus dibuat, kitorg divorce jugak’ wow! Betapanye besar perasaan or emotion can live in a person life. Tp after some months she divorced, dia t’jmpe blik dgn kekasih ati dia, to cut it short, dia kawen dgn kekasih dia tu, walaupun pd mulanya dia ragu2 dgn keputusan dia.. tap her marriage only last for 3 years because he died. This lady nyesal sgt2 x pilih kekasih ati dia at the first place, sbb dia rs kalo dia dh kawen awl2 lg dia akn dpt like almost 8-10 years of marriage with the guy she luved. Tp tyme tu aku t’pk, mungkin jodoh dia mmg with dat guy, tp, mungkin jugak jodoh diorg tu mmg pnjg tu je.. 3 thun.. Allah dh ciptakan sesuatu atas sesuatu. Semua yg tercipta ade misi dan matlamat masing2, suppose u must not regret, at least he had been with u n make u the happiest person on earth, although for some time only.

                Tapi ni plak pndgn aku kalo aku diberi pilihan yg sme.. i wont go for my best fren.. ntah la, at one point, aku terpk, kwn baik sgt knl kite mcm ne, tp bile dia jd som1 special, tetibe part2 bes tu jd xbes.. unlessssss u r falling in luv without realising it. Itu kes len.. or korg jd besfrens jus bcoz xsanggup luka n melukai each other.. in other meaning: perasaan syg tu ade, tp xtau smpi mne blh thn.. tp itu kes lain.. wateva happen, think back. Kdg2 suka, kasih, syg n cinta ni sgt ssh ditafsirkan.. tp aku blh define cinta je.. cinta tu bile bende yg plg mustahil kite suka r bende yg plg kite benci lihat org len buat, tp bile org yg kite cinta buat, kite seolah2 ignore or in other hand: xperasan pun. I know how it is, n for me, cinta tu indah n membuat hidup kite makin indah, tp cinta terhadap pencipta kite lbh baik.. kalo kite ade perasaan cinta, mengadu lah pd Allah, andai dia jodoh kite, Allah akn dekatkan dgn sempurna.. InsyaAllah..