to the person who called me 'a'

This is for you my once oji-sama,

I’m sorry if ever since we met,

Till the time flies and crushed the good relationship we made,

And until we become better,

But then, I realised that the upper ‘force’ had shown our destiny,

 If I ever made u mad at me..

We were once met when we were still in teen years,

We were good frens (think so as we can make jokes and it was good times though)

Then time flies and we split for a while,

Suddenly we met again and to be honest,

I missed the old times that I can be a person I used to be when I was teens..

Maybe that why I accept as u tried to get into my ‘life’

A life who I do not like to tell everyone on it..

A life where I don’t want anyone to know about..

But as u tried to, I gave u the opportunity,

And, as I though, there’s no one can accept that life..

Then we become bad as we had our own issue..

U with your own, me with mine..

But we never made it as an excuse to not be frens,

And at the end we try to settle our problems and we become like best friends,

I was very pleased to become one,

Of course, to make u came back to my ‘life’ is a big NO for me..

Its becoz I realised no one can accept it,

Still thought of it though...

But one day, I pray to God: ‘if he is the one for me, bring him close to me, and let him be a person he could be’

But I guess I have the answer now,

And I hope u’ll be always a better person, had never stop pray for that u know..

And sorry if I ever made you life difficult, in sorts of ways..Never thought of being one though..

To my once oji-sama: u are a good person, and you know my weakness the most, I guess, as u know my life best..This post is all about u.. May the force be with u.. luv by your asya..

The darkside of a person

Eversince the song of Kelly Clarkson had been on radio and youtube,

I've been like forever love that song..

The title is darkside..

The most favourable lyrics was:

'have u ever had a darkside,wud u luv me,wud u luv mine'

Its like,telling us forever about each person have one..

Even if s/he never been one..

Sometimes, darkside isnt something to be shown,

Sometimes, it just need to be shown so that people know,

But for me, darkside is something you just should try to avoid of showing..

Its not as same as pretending, pretend is being someone who u isnt..

Darkside is more to like:you have a thing that people should not know..

For example,things that you know people can never help or aid you with anything..

You know people love you with who you are,just dont pretend..

Be one person who people can always be with..

Maybe I'm the raven princess anyway..

Remembered the tale of the prince, the raven princess, the duck and the storywriter?

Maybe this is another version of the duck that we didn’t know.

Maybe this is the real story of the duck...

Maybe all this while, the duck isn’t exists anyway..

Or maybe you need to sit back and try to understand the raven's story...

As the story begins....

As you can see, I’m Rue, the raven princess..

Yes, at first people sees me as I’m perfect..

I can be the best in class, having the prince by my side,

And i have a lot of people likes me..

But, the swan princess came into my life..

To be exact, to the prince life..

I’m no more to the prince, as my whole life, he never rebels..

Ever since that I give a though to get my 'life'..

It’s been years before I can remember to become raven princess...

It’s her fault to give the prince his heart..

Or why not I help my prince..

And maybe i could ask for the king of raven's help..

Yes, just to make sure..

As I see how determined the swan princess was on getting back prince's heart,

The prince is more and more far away from me, this cant be happening...

Let me just be the princess who always be by oji-sama side...

This is why I’m interrupting swan princess who are kind hearted to give him all his heart..

Just stop it, I’ll take my place now...

One day, I could see how the prince suffered by me..

I though I made the right thing,

I just thought by being more aggressive i will never lose him..

I can be a better person,

If i can ever think back, I’ll wont become aggressive when i think back..

I want my prince, but I never want to be raven princess, even if its in my blood,

Even if I lose oji-sama, even if anything..

That feeling is not how I liked..

Can i by any chance, get rid of this..

The blood of the raven..

P/s:the raven princess never thinks that by being aggressive she might lose things,

       because she thought that she is already losing things, if only she help the swan princess,

       she might have the prince not in harsh way.. She might know that the swan princess only tries to help, even though she quite falling to the prince.. But things can be right without become the 'black' ones..

'Hey rue, I gave u back your prince, he’ll be all yours, coz I’m just a duck..'-quack