SCARLET LETTER

Pelik x title post aku kali ni?

Aku pun tgh terfikir.. nape aku tetibe blh terfikir pasal scarlet letter...

Mungkin sebab lagu yg satu ketika dlu org dok nyanyi2 kot..

Lagu yg memperkenalkan Taylor Swift ke seluruh dunia..

Igt x? Igt x?

Haaaa... bg yg xigt, aku nk igtkan..

Jd aku dh sediakan lyirk lgu dgn utube skali..

(alaaa xmungkin la org xigt)

Jadi, hayati lirik lagu ni, n nnt aku cite psl scarlet letter k?

Taylor Swift-Love Story lyrics

We were both young when I first saw you

I close my eyes

And the flashback starts

I'm standing there

On a balcony in summer air

See the lights

See the party, the ball gowns

I see you make your way through the crowd

And say hello, little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles

And my daddy said stay away from Juliet

And I was crying on the staircase

Begging you please don't go, and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone

I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run

You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess

It's a love story baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you

We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew

So close your eyes

Escape this town for a little while

'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter

And my daddy said stay away from Juliet

But you were everything to me

I was begging you please don't go and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone

I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run

You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess

It's a love story baby just say yes

Romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel

This love is difficult, but it's real

Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess

It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh oh

I got tired of waiting

Wondering if you were ever coming around

My faith in you is fading

When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said

Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone

I keep waiting for you but you never come

Is this in my head? I don't know what to think

He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring

And said, marry me Juliet

You'll never have to be alone

I love you and that's all I really know

I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress

It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh, oh, oh, oh

'Cause we were both young when I first saw youMcm yg aku janjikan..

Aku akn cite cket ape yg aku tau psl ‘scarlet letter’ ni..

Ape bnde scarlet letter ni?

Sebab aku curious sgt nk tau,aku pun google

‘A scarlet letter is something that tells of your flaws, weaknesses or wrongdoings without words...a tell tale sign.’

Sebenarnye, aku tau ade ‘play’ (bg yg xtau play tu ape,play tu mcm theatre la,or filem zmn dlu2.. ala,mcm cite romeo n Juliet tu, bende tu play sbnrnye,ade skrip sume) pasal scarlet letter ni.. tp aku mcm xpasti play tu berkenaan dengan ape.. aku memang pengemar play2 lame ni, tp aku slalu ske cri yg mcm ade unsur2 ballet.. tu pun sbb dlu aku terpengaruh dgn cite princess tutu, eagerly to know wat this and that.. ok, scarlet letter ni sebenarnye kisah psl sorg yg diberi nama Hester.. disebabkan kesalahan yg dia dh buat tu kire melampau, so dia diberi satu kain yg ade huruf A berwarna scarlet utk menandakan kesalahan yg dia dh buat (wow!if only we cn do dat to person who made huge mistake to us.. ok, joking).. btw, warna scarlet ni wrna merah lbh kurg macam merah hati la.. can google it if u want to know it better.. korg terfikir x nape A?A tu singkatan adultery.. ape tu adultery? Adultery is when you cheat on someone.

Itu berkenaan play scarlet letter, skrg ni, nk cite plak, nape taylor swift gne perkataan scarlet letter kt lagu dia.. atas sbb maksud scarlet letter tu flaws,weakness ataupun wrongdoing without words, sebab tu la dlm lagu atas ade scarlet letter.. taylor swift nk bgtau yg percintaan dia n romeo tu adalah satu yg slh, plus dia nk bgtau dia ade byk weakness yg rmi tau/x(not sure which)..disebabkan itu la,percintaan dia jd difficult..tp dia rs this love is real,xsngup lpaskan.. perkara yg buat aku tertarik dgn lagu ni dlu ialah dia cuba tukar version romeo n Juliet yg pttnye sedih ending dia,jd somtin yg kite always wanted.. a happy ending..

p/s: it’s a really long post,isn’t it?i cud do longer actually, but no one wud like to read it then.. =D

DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP

sebelum aku memulakan mukadimah aku, ign aku ckp, 

ni opinion aku sbg sorg perempuan...

plus, ni jugak opinion aku atas ape yg aku rs...

andai ade yg xpuas ati, aku mintak maaf awl2, sbb ni opinion aku..

kalo ade yg nk hambur aku lpas ni, aku xlayan sgt la beb/bro...

sebenarnye aku terbc kt satu blog ni bout distance relationship

aku promote la cket blog yg mne k?

http://terfaktab.blogspot.com/2011/11/long-distance-relationship-is-bullshit.html?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+Terfaktab+%28Terfaktab+feeds%29

kalo blh, bc la n pk2 la psl opinion dia jugak..

xslh kumpul opinion org ye dak?

bg aku, distance relationship is when i dun 1 to give any commitment to the exact person.

now2.. terkejut dgn statement aku?

bg aku, andai aku btul nk serious dgn seseorg, aku xkan pilih org yg berada berjauhan dgn aku..

tp aku xckp org yg buat distance relationship ni as diorg x serious dlm hubungan, tp kalo aku, aku xnk serious dgn org tu..

and the very rigid point is: mcm cik penulis blog fakta termaktub ckp la, kalo ade bf, tp dia xblh tlg anytime u need him, wats the point.. n to b honest, kalo ko dh kawen n terpaksa berjauhan dgn laki ko, itu cite len, nk tau ape yg aku jwb utk soklan mcm ni? sbb tu aku ckp, kalo aku nk start a relationship,tp aku pilih org yg jauh, maknenye aku xserious... kalo laki aku nk keje tmpt jauh, aku rs aku xkn lpskn laki aku sewenang2nye.. tp xmaksud aku mengongkong.. tgk l kan kalo aku ade aki nnt mcmne,aku xblh nk ckp pape skrg..

andai aku ade boyfriend, aku nk dia xslalu dgn aku, tp xslalu abaikan aku..

xbermaksud dia kne ade 24/7 dgn aku n xmaksud sepanjang mase dia kne kuar mkn dgn aku..

aku lbh selesa dgn seminggu sekali jmpe,tp yg plg penting: HE MUST BE THERE WHENEVER I NEED!!!

sbb tu la dia kne dkt dgn aku,bile dkt, bru blh bg commitment..

kalo distance relationship ni, bg aku la kan.. aku jus nk memain la maksudnye..

or lbh bes lagi kalo aku ckp: aku jus nk kurangkan rs sunyi aku je...

ye la, bile jauh kan kite xtau ape yg org tu buat,

kite rs mcm terkinje2 nk tau ape dia ni buat ari ni, rs mcm eh, ari ni aku xmsg ko, ko rindu x?

sorry kalo ayat aku ni mcm menganjing, tp mcm aku ckp, ni opinion..

kalo org tu dkt, aku rs, xde mslh aku xmsg sgt pun dgn org tu..

tau2 dia dh dpn mata ajak kuar..(ceh, ayat nk drama je kan?)

hahha.. btul... walaupun de teknologi, tp bg aku kalo a guy ask for a date dpn mata aku..

kompem, aku cair.. hahha.. tp haruslah kene caranye.. xde la men redah je kan...

aku rs kalo yg ajak trus dpn mata ni aku trus terime maksud: aku mmg dh lme ske ko kot... besnye ko ajak aku kuar... hahaha.. kalo aku mcm tnye2:nape aku kne ikut? maksud: ko ade potensi je, tp rejection is 70%...

mestila sbb ade org dlm ati aku,jus kalo aku rs bosan, aku terime.. mak aih siot giler ayat aku...aka aku xserious dgn ko, jgn igt aku akn bg ko komitment..

wor3.. seriously, aku rs mcm aku gurl yg jahat tetibe, tp seriously, cinta itu sesuatu yg xblh dipaksa, rs syg blh dipupuk tp,ske tu sesape pun blh.. tp satu lg kne igt, pakwe/bf adelah org yg plg kite nk bile kite perlukan.. bile dia sngup buat mcm2 utk kite, sbb tu la rs syg tu lg timbul.. tp, andai org tu jauh, kdg2 kite sedaya upaya dktkan hati kite, tp yg len akn jd, bg og yg blh buat distance relationship, aku tabik korg, tp bg aku la kan..

aku hnye buat distance relationship dgn org yg aku xserious,n jus mengisi masa lapang aku.. seriously... 

LOVE IS JUST A HORMONE

All of sudden, it’s a kind of thing that I cud share..

Some people jus don’t believe in fate, destiny, nor love...

Kalo org tnye aku, seriously, aku mmg xpercy cinta tu wujud..

Aku percaya kasih sayang tu wujud..

Cinta tu, barely in my mind it do exist..

Kalo org tnye aku, nape paranoid dgn cinta?

Aku akn ckp:cinta buat sume bende jd buta, xkenal ape yg btul, ape salah..

Berlainan dengan sayang..bile sayang, kite akn buat terbaik utk yg disayangi, slagi xmudaratkan..

Sayang akan buat kite tlg berfikir utk org yg kite syg, bile dia ssh, kite sngkan,bile kite sng,kite share together..

Tp, aku percaya qada’ n qadar.. itu maksud, aku percaya dgn takdir aka fate n destiny..

Disebabkan aku yg xpercaya cinta itu wujud atau perlu diwujudkan, aku mula acting egoist.. aku xkan tunjuk aku syg pun kt org yg aku syg.. dpn org, lg la.. cian sape jd bf aku kan? You have to be real somtin 4 me to make me act the way u wanted.. of coz u have to...tp, org yg btul syg kite xkn ubah diri kite.. if we kinda person yg ske luahkan perasaan kt fb, dia xkn bising2 utk suro kite ubah diri kite.. org yg syg kite akn terime diri kite ape adenye.. n of coz, akan hormat keputusan kite..

Love is jus a hormone.. true love is in our own heart to determine..

p/s: i love my family and frens.. i do love someone else, but, i think,i need to love Allah more.. ye la, yg aku sayang tu manusia, manusia buat kesilapan, manusia xsempurna, tp Allah akn bg kt aku kesempurnaan dalam pencarian.. org yg cukup sifatnye yang mampu buat aku rs sempurna.. nobody is perfect, but someone will complete us and make us feel completely perfect.. 

FILEM MELAYU

Bile kite g tgk wayang je, kompem kite plg xkn cri filem melayu kan?

Reason? Sebab cite melayu ni, kejap2 lg, kompem masuk utube, dh blh tgk full version..

Ade lg satu sebab.. sebab filem melayu ni, kompem adaptasi dr filem mne2..

Aku sem lpas mmg plg byk aku tgk cite kt wayang cite melayu r kot.. asal ado je, aku g tgk..

Sebab tyme sem lpas tu, byk cite hantu kt wayang, aku mmg xgemar btul cite hantu ni.. thriller tu len r, tgk gak yg jenis mcm ne.. ade yg aku layan je..

Tp aku nk cite, aku kagum dgn cite bini-bini ku gangster..

Xkisah lah ape yg org ckp ps muvi tu, aku akn still ckp, muvi tu bes..

Aku terbc satu fb perempuan ni ckp cite ni mmg 100% tiru cite korea..

Aku blh ckp satu je, kalo 100%, org korea mne kawen lbh dr 1..

Aku kagum dgn watak Yana Samsudin..

Dia btul2 buat watak yg buat aku hampir nangis..

Ko byg kan.. mcmne sorg perempuan yg sgt syg kt suami dia..

Xsanggup bgtau kt hubby dia yg dia still gangster, n dia terpakse sembunyi2 utk berbakti utk bapak dia n hubby dia..

Aku tabik perempuan yg mcm ni.. seriously..

Yg lebih buat aku tabik dgn watak Yana kt dlm cite ni, is when she decided to give her husband 2nd wife..

Bygkan part yg mmg aku nk nangis tp air mata aku ssh giler nk kuar(xtau nape) is part yg dia n Sam kt tepi koridor tu..

Aku rs kalo Sam xbuat lawak after dat, kompem berderu air mata kuar..

Wanita ni org yg sangat tabah.. aku tgk cite ni, aku senyum cket, nk tau nape?

Dlm part yg dia cakap dgn Sam, dia nk bg Sam kawen dgn Intan, she put all her heart to say that.. u can see from her eyes.. dia nk husband dia happy, sebab tu dia bg.. betapa baiknye dia.. pdhl, the only reason dia bg Sam kawen len ialah sebab dia xblh pregnant je..(ok, in Islam, that is the best reason for a guy to ask for 2^nd wife) pdhl, dia blh buat sume bende.. siap jd housewife semata2 nk jd isteri solehah.. kalo btul wujud wanita mcm ni, aku btul tabik dia.. sebak Yana tyme dia bgtau reason dia nk bg Sam kawen len tu.. bgusnye..

Wanita ni, kalo diorg diceraikan, or hubby dia mati, insyaAllah dia xkn cri lelaki len.. terutama skali kalo dia dh ade anak dgn ex-husband dia.. ank bg seorg perempuan itu, tanda kasih sayang dia kt lelaki.. igt mudah ke seorg wanita mengandung? 9 bulan terpaksa tahan alahan(some do have it till the child born).. kalo bkn alahan, dia kne tahan kandungkan anak tu.. berat tau beban yg dia tggung.. lg satu,xsemestinye wanita tu akn hidup selepas melahirkan.. ade yg meninggal selepas itu.. xkan semudah itu wanita yg dh kematian suami or cerai dgn suaminya blh senang lenang memcari ‘cinta’ len.. atas sebab, ade ank yg dia tggung.. ank2 ini lah yg dia akn syg sampai dia mati, xmintak balasan..

Tetibe tajuk dr filem melayu, jd perihal wanita.. aku sebenarnye kagum dgn ibu yg mampu melahirkan ramai anak.. (mama, nape qalmi xde adik beradik yg ramai? Xpe la, 4 org adik beradik ni pun mama xterjg.. hehe) lg plak yg kehilangan suami.. sumpah aku kagum.. utk mama aku, qalmi pun kagum dgn mama.. macamne pun mama kekadang sangat la paranoid, tp qalmi sedar, itu kan nasihat? Qalmi pun sedar knp mama jd mcm tu.. qalmi bertuah ade mama abah.. qalmi sgt kagum mama blh besarkan kitorg berempat, pdhl, kitorg sgt la nakal.. mama, abah, qalmi sayang mama abah tau.. (tetibe rs sedih..)

Back to our real topic.. jgn la ckp filem melayu ni asyik ciplak je.. kdg2 mmg diorg ambek idea dr satu2 filem yg len,  tp, take the other way round punye perspective.. i wud be real glad if kite xmerendahkan bangsa kite sendiri.. kate Malaysia boleh.. jd, support anything about Malaysia ok? 

SOMETHING CAME UP TO MY MIND

Dh dekat sebulan aku msuk sem bru ni, bru la sempat aku nk melepak kt bilik member aku yg kolej dia berlainan dgn aku..

Dh dekat 4 thun aku belajar kat IPTA ni.. sethun setgh foundation, selebihnye degree..

Punye la aku rs tua dok lme2 kt cni..

Tp yg aku lbih terase, bile aku jmpe member aku ni..

Ialah, bile aku ternampak gambar yg aku edit, khas buat dia, sebab satu mse dlu, kitorg gado xbercakap, beberape minggu..

Terigt peristiwa kitorg perang dingin tu, aku gelak sorg2..

Sebab lpas aku bg gambar tu, dia ckp: aku pun xigt dh ape bende yg aku marah kt ko..

Aku gelak sgt2..

Lawak la tyme tu..

Ade satu lg sebab aku terase sayu bile dia cite kt aku psl salah sorg geng(secara xsgaje) kitorg, dh x nk smbung pengajian..

Ya Allah, sedihnye, terase sgt bile kwn aku cite, dia sedih bile kwn kitorg tu dimain2kan namanya bile lecturer sebut nama dia kt kelas..

Sebelum aku cite psl ape yg berlaku kt member aku ni, bek aku cite mcmne geng kitorg ni blh wujud...

Dlu tyme kitorg foundation, aku plg rapat dgn A n K.. sebab diorg rum8 aku, n aku ni kire flexible gak r, blh lepak dgn geng diorg, si A ade member rapat guy C.. C plak satu bilik dgn E n M.. M ni plak sekelas dgn A n K.. get the idea? Hopefully u do.. geng ni kire plg sempoi la bg aku, aku blh jd childish.. blh bhn membahan.. blh jd diri aku.. A n K pun ske bwk aku ke geng diorg sebab diorg nmpk aku hepi giler dpt member2 sporting mcm C, E n M.. siyes, diorg sporting..

Tp tyme kitorg dh mula bwk haluan masing2, A dgn aku satu kos-under food, K n M satu kos-vet, E plak kos dia bedekatan dgn tmpt foundation kitorg dlu, C plak g ambek aquaculture kot, xigt sgt, 2 years back punye incident.. tyme ni, mmg susah btul nk jmpe sorg2.. yg mmg agk slalu jmpe ialah aku, A, M dgn K.. itu pn sbb aku satu kelas dgn A, pastu aku slalu lepak bilik K, so secara xlgsg, jmpe M.. E dgn C, ntah ape cite diorg.. tp tyme tu, xpk sgt..tp diorg berdua tu satu kolej je dgn aku n A,tp ssh nk jmpe.. C dgn xtvt dia, mcm tu gak dgn E.. kdg2 terserempak, nk tegur, pun segan, pdhl dlu satu geng..

Xlme lpas tu, dgr plak cite si C dh tukar kos.. n dh x stay kolej.. kompem lg ssh la nk jmpe, lepak2 dgn geng kan? Tp, tyme tu pk, kitorg dh makin sibuk dgn hal masing2, xleh nk buat ape la kan..

Now, when i hear about M, n E..(shudnt tell wat happen to E act..) suddenly it came to my mind, one of my fren turns to jerk.. n another turns to be so obsessive?  Wat happen to the geng? I felt so mad to see wat happen, frenship turns to frenshit i guess.. but, it jus so hard to see the geng is splitting.. owh.. lpe nk bgtau ape jd kt M..

M dpt vet, n den he was obsess with getting more money while studying.. skrg, dia berhenti belajar, semata2 sebab rs the degree he will get is not worth it.. money is everything for him rite now.. aku tnye kt K, if we can have a slow talk with M? He suppose to gain somtin in his way.. kalo xjd sume tu? He have to do diploma den? N K jus blh ckp kt aku: qalmi, kitorg dh berckp dgn dia, tp, xmenjd.. dia rs seolah2 nasihat kitorg ni penghalang dia nk berjy..

 aku terase sedih.. aku hope sgt, this geng cud be together again.. i cud be childish girl yg bhn membahan diorg blik.. rindu sgt saat tu.. tp, ape kan daya.. mungkin satu masa nnt, kitorg dh berjy nnt, bru kitorg bersatu blik? Tyme tu mungkin, masing2 dh kawen, dh beranak pinak.. i’m not sure kan?

p/s: entry kali ni xberunsur happiness lgsg.. tp, its a saying of: i wud like my frens to be together.. n at one point nnt, tlg la.. sume tlg berjy dlm idup korg.. insyaAllah aku akn bwk haluan aku jugak nnt, tp, aku nk jmpe korg sume dlm keadaan plg terbaik.. i’ll miss the geng we used to be.. i had miss the way we had fun always while in this geng.. i jus will always miss each memories u gave me.. n thnx..